{"id":11434,"date":"2025-11-29T15:15:22","date_gmt":"2025-11-29T14:15:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/natorce.com\/?p=11434"},"modified":"2025-11-30T01:13:30","modified_gmt":"2025-11-30T00:13:30","slug":"36","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/natorce.com\/pl\/36\/","title":{"rendered":"36"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image alignleft size-large is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"683\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1-683x1024.jpg\" alt=\"nat orce, a portrait photographer by natalia miedziak-skonieczna \" class=\"wp-image-11436\" style=\"width:537px;height:auto\" srcset=\"https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1-683x1024.jpg 683w, https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1-200x300.jpg 200w, https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1-768x1152.jpg 768w, https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1-1024x1536.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1-600x900.jpg 600w, https:\/\/natorce.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/IMG_4936-1.jpg 1280w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 683px) 100vw, 683px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">fot. Natalia Miedziak-Skonieczna<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Ko\u0144cz\u0119 36 lat.<br>Gdy by\u0142am ma\u0142a wydawa\u0142o mi si\u0119, \u017ce to du\u017co, tak daleko, tak powa\u017cnie.<br>Mam wra\u017cenie, \u017ce min\u0119\u0142y stulecia odk\u0105d sko\u0144czy\u0142am 11 lat kiedy to obudzi\u0142a si\u0119 moja \u015bwiadomo\u015b\u0107, a jednocze\u015bnie, \u017ce to by\u0142o mo\u017ce dekad\u0119 temu.<br>Wci\u0105\u017c na twarzy mam pryszcze i wstydz\u0119 si\u0119 mojego biustu, tak jak wtedy, gdy by\u0142am nastolatk\u0105.<br><strong>Mam dw\u00f3jk\u0119 dzieci i sama jestem wci\u0105\u017c dzieckiem.<\/strong><br>Nie osi\u0105gn\u0119\u0142am sukces\u00f3w zawodowych, o jakich marzy\u0142am, gdy mia\u0142am 20 lat.<br>Osi\u0105gn\u0119\u0142am jednak to, co nawet nie przysz\u0142oby mi wtedy do g\u0142owy &#8211; ujarzmi\u0142am moje ego. Moj\u0105 pych\u0119, zuchwalstwo, dum\u0119, brak pokory, z kt\u00f3rych nie zdawa\u0142am sobie sprawy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>To niewdzi\u0119czna praca. Przyznawanie si\u0119 do b\u0142\u0119d\u00f3w, do manipulowania lud\u017ami, do k\u0142amstw, do odwracania kota ogonem, do niewiedzy, do l\u0119ku i poczucia s\u0142abo\u015bci. Do stawania samej sobie na drodze do realizacji cel\u00f3w, do ignorowania i krzywdzenia samej siebie, do lekkomy\u015blno\u015bci w podejmowaniu decyzji, kt\u00f3rych s\u0142one konsekwencje potem musia\u0142am sp\u0142aca\u0107.<br>To nie moja wina, \u017ce taka jestem. Nigdy nie by\u0142o moj\u0105 intencj\u0105 mie\u0107 te cechy. To forma przetrwania, walki o mi\u0142o\u015b\u0107 i akceptacj\u0119, uwag\u0119, kt\u00f3ra karmi poczucie bycia r\u00f3wno-wa\u017cn\u0105. Nie otrzyma\u0142am jednak innego przyk\u0142adu zachowa\u0144.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Niedawno, wspominaj\u0105c moje \u017cycie przypomnia\u0142o mi si\u0119 to poczucie, \u017ce <strong>wychowuj\u0119 sama siebie.<\/strong> My\u015bla\u0142am jednak, \u017ce to przekonanie wynika\u0142o z buntu nastoletniego, z powodu, \u017ce to ja sama si\u0119 odcinam od rodzic\u00f3w. A to po prostu by\u0142a konsekwencja olewania mnie i zostawiania samej sobie, jako trzecie, p\u00f3\u017ane dziecko zapracowanych, zestresowanych rodzic\u00f3w.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Mam 36 lat i tyle w\u0142a\u015bnie zaj\u0119\u0142o mi poznanie osoby, kt\u00f3r\u0105 by\u0142am, jestem i chcia\u0142abym by\u0107.<\/strong><br>Mam 36 lat i ucz\u0119 si\u0119 nie wstydzi\u0107 za siebie, cho\u0107 daleko mi do bycia t\u0105 wymarzon\u0105 &#8222;ja&#8221;. Cierpliw\u0105, otwart\u0105, konsekwentn\u0105, zr\u00f3wnowa\u017con\u0105, elastyczn\u0105, elokwentn\u0105.<br>Mam 36 lat i kocham to, \u017ce jestem tak g\u0142odna i ciekawa \u015bwiata, czu\u0142a i buduj\u0105ca g\u0142\u0119bokie relacje, wra\u017cliwa, kreatywna, przedsi\u0119biorcza, radosna. Niezmiennie pe\u0142na przeciwie\u0144stw, o bogatym wn\u0119trzu i niesko\u0144czenie ciekawa co jest za kolejnym wzniesieniem i zakr\u0119tem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ko\u0144cz\u0119 36 lat.Gdy by\u0142am ma\u0142a wydawa\u0142o mi si\u0119, \u017ce to du\u017co, tak daleko, tak powa\u017cnie.Mam wra\u017cenie, \u017ce min\u0119\u0142y stulecia odk\u0105d sko\u0144czy\u0142am 11 lat kiedy to obudzi\u0142a si\u0119 moja \u015bwiadomo\u015b\u0107, a jednocze\u015bnie, \u017ce to by\u0142o mo\u017ce dekad\u0119 temu.Wci\u0105\u017c na twarzy mam pryszcze i wstydz\u0119 si\u0119 mojego biustu, tak jak wtedy, gdy by\u0142am nastolatk\u0105.Mam dw\u00f3jk\u0119 dzieci i 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Natalia Miedziak-Skonieczna Ko\u0144cz\u0119 36 lat.Gdy by\u0142am ma\u0142a wydawa\u0142o mi si\u0119, \u017ce to du\u017co, tak daleko, tak powa\u017cnie.Mam wra\u017cenie, \u017ce min\u0119\u0142y stulecia odk\u0105d sko\u0144czy\u0142am 11 lat kiedy to obudzi\u0142a si\u0119 moja \u015bwiadomo\u015b\u0107, a jednocze\u015bnie, \u017ce to by\u0142o mo\u017ce dekad\u0119 temu.Wci\u0105\u017c na twarzy mam pryszcze i wstydz\u0119 si\u0119 mojego biustu, tak jak wtedy, gdy by\u0142am nastolatk\u0105.Mam dw\u00f3jk\u0119 dzieci i sama jestem wci\u0105\u017c dzieckiem.Nie osi\u0105gn\u0119\u0142am sukces\u00f3w zawodowych, o jakich marzy\u0142am, gdy mia\u0142am 20 lat.Osi\u0105gn\u0119\u0142am jednak to, co nawet nie przysz\u0142oby mi wtedy do g\u0142owy &#8211; ujarzmi\u0142am moje ego. Moj\u0105 pych\u0119, zuchwalstwo, dum\u0119, brak pokory, z kt\u00f3rych nie zdawa\u0142am sobie sprawy. 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